Emptiness

The worst thing that could happen was losing my story. I could lose everything else, but losing the story in my heart was unbearable. The thought that Derivation would be there no matter what happened, no matter how deep the rabbit-hole went, kept me going for so long.
I emptied myself into the singular pursuit.
My apathy, empathy, love, hatred, passion, motivation.
Everything belonged to my one purpose; telling the tale that burned in my chest.
Now I fear I've given too much.
I'm empty.
I lost Derivation while I was surrendering the rest.
The one thing I was determined to keep is gone.
Without it, I'm not even a person.
So what now? What do I do now that the worst has happened?
How long do I stay away? How long will it take to fall in love again? Until my hands itch with words burning to see life on paper?
I don't know.
I'm starting over. From the beginning. Tell me again, Alexander.
Stay good and keep transmitting
-Aman Sandhu 2016

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